Three weeks ago, I was diagnosed with Lupus. There are three severities of Lupus: mild, moderate, and severe. Mine straddles the line between mild and moderate. It’s not curable, but it’s manageable.
I didn’t see it coming. But in retrospect, it makes perfect sense. And in all likelihood, I’ve had it for a long while.
A few years ago, I was diagnosed with a rare skin inflammation called Paniculitis & Vasculitis. Lupus is characterized as internal tissue inflammation due to a compromised immune system. In essence, my white blood cells are malfunctioning, attacking my own red blood cells and other healthy tissue. Now we know that the cause of the skin disorder was very likely Lupus.
I’ve had Fibromyalgia most of my life. Or has it been Lupus all along? Both are part of the same disorder family. My rheumatologist says we’ll never know for sure, but there’s a 50/50 chance that it’s been Lupus all along.
Earlier this year, around March or April I think, I made an appointment to see my regular doctor. Something was wrong with me, and I didn’t know what. I was experiencing more pain and weariness than usual, my attitude and personality were all over the map, and I just didn’t feel like myself. (One of the side effects of living with chronic pain is that you become very attuned to how you feel, physically. If something’s off, you know it immediately, even if you can’t pinpoint what it is.) I could tell that something inside me was very wrong. Tests were run, nothing out of the ordinary was found. The doctor wrote the whole thing off, but I remained quietly convinced that something was wrong.
Months passed, and though I said nothing, I was gradually finding it harder and harder to work. It wasn’t a big secret, I just didn’t know how to explain it. I still don’t. I’ve always been Mr. Focus. When everyone else’s minds are wandering off, I’m the one that stays on point. I sit down, I zero in on the task at hand, I close off the rest of the world, and I get it done. It was alarming when that skill started to evaporate. I would brush it off and attribute it to lack of sleep or “bad Fibro days,” but as it became more and more common and my work suffered continually for it, my self-worth took a nosedive. I’m an achiever, so an inability to accomplish anything pushed me into a state of unending frustration.
One of my swollen feet from about a month ago.
About two and a half months ago, I started experiencing a new pain coming from the tops of my feet. I’d never heard of such a thing, and thought it was really weird. Over the next couple of weeks, the pain spread from my feet to my hands and all of the joints in between. My feet and hands began to swell. They’d start out okay in the morning, but by evening they’d look like the Michelin Man’s hands and feet. Especially my feet. They were the worst. As the swelling increased, so did the pain.
Four weeks ago, this swelling and pain finally convinced my rheumatologist that something was very wrong. I’d seen her a month prior, but she’d written it all off as a reaction to an unrelated medication. This time, she couldn’t so easily dismiss it. I was in extreme pain and at the very end of my rope. She ordered a bunch of expensive tests like cardiograms and ultrasounds, as well as a full blood panel.
The next week, her nurse called to give me the news. The various big tests had all come back fine, but the blood panel told the tale: it was Lupus.
I was shocked. And also… kind of not. The more I read about Lupus and learn about what it is, the more sense it makes. It just adds up. All of it, going back for years. And as odd as it sounds, there was this unmistakeable feeling of relief. I wasn’t relieved to have Lupus. I don’t want Lupus. It’s no fun. But I was relieved to finally know. For the first time, I had a name to put to it, and it wasn’t some vague, weird thing that no one has ever heard of.
When I was a teenager, I was diagnosed with Gastroesophageal Reflux Disease. Today, this is known by the more common name Acid Reflux. At the time no one had ever heard of it, so I spent a lot of time explaining what it was. Then came Fibromyalgia, which again, no one had heard of and required lots of explaining. Paniculitis & Vasculitis, same deal. There have been other things over the years, weird things that popped up in between all the rest, stuff that defied simple explanations.
The “vague meter” has been dialed up all my life, and now for the first time, there’s something that not only provides a potentially all-encompassing explanation, but which dials the vague meter all the way down. It never felt more “real” than it does now, and I know for certain that I’m not nuts. All sorts of thoughts go through your mind when something’s so wrong and the doctors can’t find anything. Was I paranoid? Was I a hypochondriac? Was I crazy?
Now I know for certain that it’s very real.
Now, my family and I are adjusting to a new normal. I’m not an invalid, and I’m not handicapped. But I’m learning that my daily energy and strength allotments are very finite. The chronic pain is still as present as ever, headaches come and go, and sleep is always a major challenge. And my immune system is compromised, so as I write this, I’m dealing with a sinus infection and pink eye. (Looking back, I’ve averaged about two or three sinus infections a year. Finally I know why I get sick so easily.) More than anything, my life has slowed way down. My blog-for-hire work has decreased significantly (and a big thanks to the folks at Splashpress Media for being so gracious and understanding), but my fiction writing has actually had cause to pick up.
About the same time all those awful tests were being run, a wonderful new opportunity came my way. I’ve signed a new book contract! Coming next April is a new big-screen movie called Persecuted, written and directed by the talented Daniel Lusko. It stars James Remar, Bruce Davison, Fred Dalton Thompson, Brad Stine, Natalie Grant, and Dean Stockwell. I’ve seen the movie, and it’s good — really good. And yours truly is writing the official novelization for Bethany House Publishers. The full-length novel, which expands the story significantly, will be available around the same time that the movie comes out. So I’m working on that right now.
And since my ability to work has been reduced, we’re praying that this fantastic opportunity will open doors to many more. Please join us in praying for this.
A few quick updates:
- Octane, the motion comic, is still in production. I haven’t heard a release date yet, but what I’ve seen of it looks spectacular.
- The ‘Naturals: Season 2 is temporarily on hold because of my situation. The other authors are being super gracious in allowing me time to deal with this major life change. We hope to get back into it early in the new year.
- The Secret Door, aka the sequel to Corridor, is still happening, but all of my time is being poured into Persecuted right now, so The Secret Door will now arrive sometime in 2014. I don’t know exactly when. It’ll be released when I finish it.
- Bethany House has a killer promotion going on where you can get ebook editions of Offworld, Nightmare, and Vigilante for just $8 combined. Offworld is a free download, and the other two are available for $4 each. Amazing, huh? It’s the perfect chance to complete your collection! See my entire catalog of books here. They make great Christmas gifts! (That was subtle, right?)
2013 has been a weird year. As I said, I didn’t see any of this coming. But I’m still here. We’ve seen endless blessings and God has been so faithful time and time again. He has shown us so many times that he cares even about the littlest things. He has seen me through this journey, and although this is definitely a turning point, the beginning of a new chapter in my life, I know he will carry me all the way through.
I could not survive without my family, most especially my patient, thoughtful, beautiful wife Karen, who walks side-by-side with me in all of this and has picked up the slack from my downtime without a single complaint. She is amazing, and I could not do any of this without her.
Happy Thanksgiving, Merry Christmas, and my heartfelt love and gratitude to you all.
It’s been seven long months since I last talked about what I’m up to. 2013 started out looking like it could shape up to be the best year of my career. And then it wasn’t.
For a variety of reasons, 2013 has been a difficult, stressful, faith-testing year. The economy may be bouncing back, but not in our neck of the woods. We’ve been getting by on fumes and prayers for a long time now, and things have reached their breaking point. We’ve prayed nonstop for God to show us what path to take, what he would have us do. But his answers haven’t always been crystal clear.
One thing I do know for certain is that he’s been stirring up a profound restlessness deep in my soul. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so unsettled or uncertain. More nights than I can count, I have laid in bed, unable to sleep, because for the first time in my life, the path ahead has been maddeningly vague.
A conversation a few weeks ago with my wonderful agent was a painful but much needed eye-opener. I’ve known for a while that the publishing paradigm was shifting (thank you, ebooks), but I had no idea the extent to which the pro marketplace has dried up. Even established writers are finding it hard to get a contract nowadays. That conversation impressed one big truth upon me: If you want to be successful in the current climate, you’ve got to make something happen for yourself. Be bold, take risks, stand out from the crowd. So in the spirit of one of my daughter’s favorite phrases (“Parrishes never give up!”), that’s what I’m going to do.
Here’s where I’m at.
1. Those 4 projects I told you about a while back are still in the works, but each one has been hit by drastic delays for one reason or another. I have no ETAs yet to offer for Octane, The Secret Door, or the untitled co-writing project. Season 2 of The ‘Naturals is in production now.
2. Blogging is a great way to increase an author’s profile and monetize their work, and while I’ve been blogging-for-hire for years now, I’m looking to start some blogs where I retain full ownership. Up first: as a writer, I come across a lot of really amazing free font downloads as I work, so I’m creating a blog where I highlight and link to one free, high-quality font everyday. I’m a lover of words, so I’ve always been a big fan of beautiful fonts. It’ll be simple but (hopefully) very useful. No commentary, just great typography.
3. After that comes the big one. Anybody still miss Infuze Magazine? I sure do. So I want to do a blog that gets Infuze‘s art/God/story/life conversation going again, because I really believe with all my heart that we were onto something that no one else before or since has fully engaged in. I’m not rebuilding Infuze; I just want to publish some daily thoughts and commentary that speak to the foundational principles Infuze was built on.
4. I have loads of ideas cooking, but the bottom line is that I’m going to be doing a little of this and a little that. You might be surprised at some of the stuff I come up with. Just remember that it’s all about a) following God’s calling on my life, and b) supporting my family with much needed income. Speaking of which…
5. The Parrish family is now accepting donations. For a long time, I’ve felt funny about posting something like this. But things are what they are. Karen and I have 2 beautiful, brilliant, funny, sweet, kindhearted kids who are entering private school kindergarten and preschool, and we know that they’re where God wants them to be. But when we followed God’s leading on this, we told God that he’s going to have to foot the bill. So should God be prodding anyone out there to help us take this leap of faith, I wanted to make this means of contributing available. All donations go towards paying the Parrish kids’ tuition, along with basic household necessities like mortgage, utilities, etc.
And if you’re in the same boat as us, financially, then we dare not forget that prayers are a crucial form of support, too. Please lift us up in prayer and Karen and I will do the same for you if you’ll leave your name in the Comments below.
Stay tuned, because some very cool stuff is cooking. I may not be able to see where this ship is headed, but I know that God is still at the wheel. And it’s time I climb aboard!
It happened a little over three hundred years ago. Bunch of meteors saturated with radiation collided with Earth’s atmosphere. What happened next changed our world forever.
They called it the Rain. It wiped out most of mankind, made the planet barely habitable, and darkened the skies for good.
From the ashes of the old world rose a new civilization known as the Seven Cities. And it was unlike anything that came before.
That’s the prologue to OCTANE, the “not a novel” project (#3 on this list) that I’ve been dying to tell you about for almost a year now. OCTANE is a “motion comic,” which is basically a comic book/graphic novel that’s partially animated and incorporates sound effects and music. It’s being produced by Motionworks Entertainment, a major new publisher that specializes in motion comics. When it launches in a few months, OCTANE will be available to purchase and experience exclusively on iPad, iPhone, and Android-based devices, and it will be published in roughly 25-30 page digital “books.”
Here’s the biggest, coolest part of the whole thing: OCTANE was created by comic book legend James O’Barr — best known as the creator of The Crow! O’Barr came up with the concept for OCTANE but didn’t have time to write or draw it himself, so Motionworks asked me if I could take what O’Barr gave them, develop it, and write this big, sprawling, epic story. In a nutshell: it’s O’Barr’s concept, I’ve fleshed it out and am writing the scripts, and then Motionworks is drawing, animating, and publishing it.
Now I’m not foolish enough to try and write like James O’Barr. That would be pointless; I write nothing like he does. But while Motionworks gave me the freedom to put my own sensibilities and stamp onto the story, it was equally important to me that I try to maintain the integrity, the flavor, the feel of what O’Barr does.
So what is OCTANE, exactly? Four hundred years from now, the survivors of a global disaster that brought on eternal night have been corralled into a new civilization called the Seven Cities. The Seven Cities are a kingdom, located in what used to be the Northeast United States, and its citizens are oppressed by a vile, all-powerful ruler. Our story begins with five men who live outside of the strictures of this society, coming and going as they please, bowing a knee to no one and doing whatever they like, wherever they like. They’re motivated by greed and an appreciation for anarchy. When one of their number is betrayed by the other four, he sets out in search of them on a quest for bloody vengeance that will take him to every one of the Seven Cities. But the journey he thinks he’s on may not be the journey he ends up on.
I’m not going to mince words: OCTANE is a high concept, post-apocalyptic dark tale of bloody revenge. It’s the darkest thing I’ve ever written (though aside from some violence and bloodshed, there’s nothing in it I’d call offensive). It won’t be for the faint of heart, and some of my readers won’t be attracted to this sort of material. That’s okay. But for those that dare to go on this journey, I offer this: the story is more than it initially appears to be. Take that as you will.
I’ll have lots more exciting details for you about OCTANE in the days and weeks to come, so stay tuned. In the meantime, enjoy this little taste of what’s in store! (Click the image to make it big enough to see all the incredible details.)
The ebook edition of Corridor is just $.99 until the end of 2012. Get it while it’s hot, or give it as a gift. (It makes a great gift for anyone with a brand new Kindle or iPad!)
The Story Begins: 10.15.12
AUTHORS MELODY CARLSON, ROBIN PARRISH, K.C. NEAL, & AARON PATTERSON PROUDLY PRESENT A SAGA LIKE NO OTHER, TOLD IN SERIALIZED FORM…
A small town full of secrets. A coming darkness. Teenagers with supernatural abilities. Think you know the story?
As Summer ends, the students at Silverwood High are getting ready to go back to school and resume their normal, everyday lives. Too bad “normal” is no longer an option.
When these teens get their very first tastes of what destiny has in store, will they embrace that destiny… or flee from it? Will they be selfless… or ruthless? Will they master their abilities… or will their abilities master them?
This is their awakening, the first step of an epic journey. But it’s only the beginning of something bigger than they could ever imagine.
Four teenagers. One town.
Four authors. One story.
The sleepy little town of Silverwood is about to wake up.
See also: Melody Carlson | K.C. Neal | Aaron Patterson
One may be the loneliest number, but four is the happiest! I’m excited to announce that I don’t have one big project in the pipeline. Not two, either, or even three.
I’ve got FOUR major new projects in various stages of production right now!
You read that right: four. I can’t tell you everything about them yet (have to go through proper channels and all that), but I want you to know they exist, and they’re coming. Here’s what I can tell you about all four projects.
1. The sequel to Corridor
It’s happening. Everyone that’s read Corridor has expressed a desire to know what happens next to Troy and Victoria. I know exactly what happens to them after their adventure in the Corridor, so I’m going to tell you.
Corridor will be a trilogy when I’m done with it. I have the general story for the third one in my head, most importantly including how the whole thing ends, but I shouldn’t get ahead of myself… Troy and Victoria’s story continues with the second book, picking up a few months after the first one ends. And your head may explode when you read this one.
Announcement time! I’m thinking of calling it THE SECRET DOOR.
Current status: outline complete, writing begun.
Projected release date: tentatively no later than Christmas 2012.
2. A multi-author project
Another one, but nothing at all like 7 Hours. There’s not much I’m clear to say about this one yet, but I can tell you that four authors are involved, you’ll recognize most if not all four names, and it’s not going to be published in a traditional way. (How’s that for a tease!) It’s a wild idea, and I can tell you that I’ve had more fun creating the characters for this one than I have in a long time. As soon as I get the green light, I’ll tell you everything.
Current status: contract signed, writing begun.
Projected release date: October (tentatively).
3. Something that’s not a book
Here’s one to tickle your brain. It’s not a novel. It’s not a novella, it’s not a short story, it’s not even a blurb. It’s a different medium altogether. This one’s been in production the longest, so it’s pretty far along. It’s not my call to make regarding when to announce this one, because there are several parties involved. (I’m the only writer involved, though.) Another name attached to this one is a pretty famous one, so it’s a huge deal. I can’t wait to tell you about this project, and that will happen very, very soon.
Current status: contract signed, writing nearly complete.
Projected release date: within the next 2-3 months.
4. A co-writing project
The newest addition to this list is something that fell in my lap a few weeks ago, and is being fast-tracked into production almost immediately. This one doesn’t even have a title yet, but the storyline is crazy cool. I’m co-writing this alongside another well-known author, and it will be a true collaboration. This will be my first co-authorship and I’m super excited about it!
Current status: planning, awaiting contract.
Projected release date: sometime this Fall.
It’s pretty obvious that things have taken a sudden turn into a very exciting direction. I’m heading into a new season as a writer, and I’ve never been more excited!
Karen and I are praying hard that God will bless each and every one of these projects. Our end goals are that I’ll be able to move into writing fiction full time, and she’ll be able to be a stay-at-home mom. Please join us in praying toward that end, but most importantly that God’s will will be done and that he will be glorified by what we do.
Beyond these four projects, I have a number of other things I’m itching to get to. There’s been suggestions and idle conversations about other stories I want to tell, further down the line, with some of the same folks involved in the projects listed above. And my longtime passion project, code-named Project TRK, is always percolating in the back of my head. Other ideas are waiting for their moment to arrive, too.
Things are snowballing, my friends, and it’s going to be a very wild ride! Get ready.
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